Back in the saddle

I'm going to lead worship tomorrow at Impact. It's been awhile since I've stood at a microphone to lead worship and I think I'm looking forward to it. Ultimately it is what I'd like to do with my life, but it's a bit different when it's a fill-in role. There's not the relationship and the degree of knowing which songs people will know and which ones they won't. It's harder to have a sense for where people are, when to push them to go further and when to let them dwell in a moment.

I know it will go well, but I'm wondering in what sense. There are times when I have reflected as a musician and thought, "that sucked." But in those times there are things I have learned and in the sense of a fuller understanding of who God is and who I am in relation to God, those have been successes as much or more than the others. My pride needs to be knocked down sometimes and being musically incompetent in front of people will do that for you. If this is one of the times, I pray I learn quickly.